just a quick note to say thank you for sharing my thoughts. It’s great to see that we are actually connected and wired; thanks to the internet! I think you probably heard the news about nuke everyday, the situation keeps changing moment by moment. Right now, it’s not only about quake or radioactivity, it’s also about information.
Last night, I was so panicked. It’s incredible how much of information including rumors, threats and propaganda we get everyday. Surely, there are some useful information within; however, we are bombarded by crazy amount of information constantly. I felt that our old friend was sneaking towards me; it’s the fear. I was starting to get scared and thought, I should get out the town right away without thinking any consequence. I’m such a fool. I emailed some of my dearest friends who are still in Tokyo asking to come to Nagano mountains with me. My heart was pumping so fast. All the worst case scenarios were going through in my head, you know I’m such an imaginative person and that’s why I write novels!
I couldn’t resist so I phoned up to one of my friends. It was 2:30am. Thank god he picked up the phone and wasn’t angry. He just talked to me in very quiet tone, tried to calm me down. He decided to stay in Tokyo ages ago, whatever happens. He said, he doesn’t understand what exactly people are so scared of. I thought, he made a good point. We don’t know the true identity of the fear, this public hysteria and panics. There are tons of people up north, without food or electricity under the heavy snow. I can’t believe that some people are actually starved to death in this country. Compare to that, the city still functions apart from the fact that people are leaving so it’s getting more like a ghost town. But hey, it’s kinda cool, right?
We have our own choices in life, everyone has different value system. If you want to make people move, using fear is not a great idea at all. Through our conversation, we found the system of not being controlled by the information. We should always think and estimate the consequence of when you follow that particular information. What would the information give you? Tremor or depression? Energy to keep going? Use your instinct and it will tell you. Resist the fear and don’t let it control over you. There’re no THEM who is trying to attack you. It’s you. The enemy is within you. It’s always inside of your mind, so just trust yourself.
He still goes to work by bicycle, appreciating the fact that now he has some time to hangout with his friends because the office shut a lot earlier than normal, trying not to be fooled by any rumors or threat and keep telling funny jokes. I respect him so much, and there’re so many people like him in this town. That’s what I want you to know. The strength of ordinary people.
We also talked about the life after this disaster. We have lots of creative plans. We’ll write, make music, paint and organizing workshops. Now things has changed completely. We actually know that there are people who can share our thoughts and emotions in all over the world. Join my workshops, when things get calmer. I can’t wait to have you guys back and enjoy the beauty and density daintiness of Japan. Oh well, when we don’t need to be worry about radioactive, of course.
Please don’t feel any guilt, just enjoy and appreciate your everyday life. Since we are connected, it’s also our happiness, you see. Thanks for reading!
All my love,