It’s 9:41am and no aftershocks for a while (we had relatively a big one last night but getting used to it). This morning, I found the strangest thing from the window of my apartment. It’s Mt. Fuji! I knew it’s in that direction but my place I’ve never noticed that I can see it from my window since where I live is in the middle of Tokyo (Shinjuku)…so a scenery from the other side of window is Tokyo skyscrapers. Quite surreal. It’s all probably because of the air is so clear since all the factories are shut down? I don’t know. Well, it’s a nice gift from nature so I enjoy.
Thanks for all the comments! Thanks so much for reading! I’m reading and would love to reply each of you, but I’d like to post another entry instead. All of your comments are related to what I’m thinking and what I talk with my friends. It’s about, what should we do now and what can we do. All of us are traumatized by the disaster, even Tokyo is quite safe but we experienced, witnessing our on going disaster.
As erichnabokov said (thanks for your opinion!) I know my friend could be seen nihilistic, but I have to say, he’s not. Let me explain!
He was the one who suffered from the urge of going up North and do whatever he can as a volunteer, right after the quake. It’s so painful to know that you’re totally useless. Because becoming a volunteer at this stage, you need quite a skill. Like rangers, like people in our Self-Defence force, you’ve got to be trained under the toughest situation. It’s been snowing heavily, some places are still underwater so you need to be shot vaccines before going in, however the people who truly need vaccines are the victims. You need to bring your own food because all food there are for victims, skill to find the place to sleep and time, no complaint, then you could be counted as a manpower but not useful enough. Right now, they need professional help and supports. Real knowledge with real experiences. Probably after a while, all the volunteers can go up there and help re-establishment. At this moment, we’ve got to be patient.
This is what we learnt from Hansin-Earthquake in 1995. Almost all man I talked with suffered from the feeling of (sort of) guilt, that he really wants to go there right away but it’ll be just a selfish act. Therefore, my friend is only an example but he decided to stay in town to cheer people up around him. Trying to utilize this situation as positive as possible. Because we are not yet finished. We have a duty to keep this city functions. It’s very sad to see the empty shelves in the supermarket or how quiet the city is, but there are things we are trying to do. My friends still open their cafe for people. Bookstores are still open. We need to protect the places we love, still need to use our money on something we truly love, this is a kind of support we can do for each other. That’s one of the reason I keep going to my favourite cafe. Surely, what I can pay is so tiny but we don’t want to give up. You’ve got to protect things you love. That’s probably the reason why I stay here, there are people and places I love and they are still here.
Here’s what people around me are doing: trying not to use electricity as possible, (I used to use my heating, light and played music while I’m working, but now I switch off everything except PC) tying not to buy up things, trying not to be alone. These are the things what we can do so far for the people in up North. And we donate and pray for/with them as much as we can. However, if you stop working it means (especially like myself, freelancers) you are not making any money for the next month. Because our life goes on!
We are in the city. It’s less people now and there are tons of rumors saying Tokyo is almost over. However I don’t trust that information. Because at this moment, it’s a beautiful out and we’re still here.
Thanks for reading! Have a nice day!!
All my love,